Confession Time

Ok, it's confession time...the honest to goodness truth...over the last few months I have not been very good at all. I have been having a really hard time battleing with fear and anxiety over the past several months. It has been a really big issue for me bc it has been interfering with my every day life...nothing seemed to matter bc the future seemed so bleak that I just didn't care about anything. My relationships were affected and so was my worship to God...but allow me to let you in on a little secret. . . . GOD IS SO AMAZING!!!! Over the past month he has COMPLETELY restored me and my heart. It so amazing how He can just bring complete peace and restoration.

I know I'm not super consistent with my blog but I share when I feel moved to do so...right now there are a few things on my heart at the moment that I feel compelled to share. So here it goes...I hope you enjoy but most of all I hope you feel God tugging on your heart as you read and maybe this will be of help to someone out there right now....

I've been reading over the past couple days about the story of Joseph in Genesis. His story has always been a favorite of mine b/c of all the turmoil he goes through and how God was with him and brought him out of it a prosperous man - far greater than he could ever have imagined. Throughout Joseph's story, this line is repeated "the Lord was with Joseph"...not matter what happened to Joseph, God was with him...in Potiphar's house, in prision and when he was made second in command to Pharaoh over all of Egypt. He caused things to prosper because he was with Jospeh. God set it all up for a purpose..His purpose. Joseph's brothers, who sold him into slavery, end up coming to him for food becuse a horrible famine had struck the land. Then we get to Genesis 45:5, after Joseph reveals himself to his brothers and is telling them to not be upset for selling him to the Egyptians. He says, "It was God who sent me here ahead of you to preserve your lives." Isn't it cool how God had planned everything so perfectly and had a solution for Jospeh's family's suffering before they ever knew a famine was coming? It's the same in our lives...God has a plan and even if I can't see it or understand it doesn't mean there isn't one. Focus on God in ALL circumstances NO MATTER WHAT...seek him in prayer ALWAYS and ask for guidance. For him to show you HIS WAY not your way. (Romans 12:12, 1 Thessalonians 5:16-18)

Also in the story the Pharaoh hears that Joseph's brothers are here and decides he is going to give them everything they need to return and get their family. He is going to set them up with the finest land in all of Egypt. He tells them in v. 20, "Don't worry about your personal belongings, for the best of all the land of Egypt is yours." When I read this today it made me think of God and his promises to us as heirs with Christ. Don't hold on to the things of this world (our "belongings" so to speak). God has so much more in store for you and me. All the treasures and beauty of heaven await those who seek after God with their whole hearts and lives - so leave the world behind- LET IT GO!! The most beautiful things on earth are only a shadow - a faint shadow - of the beauty that awaits us in Heaven. The more you let go of this world, the closer you can get to Him...so fall into His arms. He's waiting with them wide open...give him your life - ALL OF IT - He can do far more with it than you ever could.